I'm not feeling fabulous today. My stomach is all yucky feeling. I haven't eaten much at all today and I'm still not hungry but I know I need to eat something. I've been babysitting Jenna all day and I was supposed to be done almost an hour ago but Aunt Boo asked if I minded staying a little late so she could run an errand. So of course I said I didn't mind and now I've been in this disgustingly messy house for 8 hours. It's a beautiful big home that is just trashed. It just feels dirty and I hate being here. It just makes me want to clean but I don't know where to start.
I got home from Huntington last night and I am SOO happy to be back. I just feel like I suck at life when I'm at practice and sometimes I feel like my team mates are asking the question "Is she only on this team because of her grandparents?" when they look at me. I know that sometimes I'm just being paranoid but sometimes I really just feel like I suck and it's not fun. The events were great all except one where I didn't particularly care for the girls I was working with but hey, you win some you lose some. They were new last year and kind of stick together in general. Luckily Candice and Jake who are married were there as well and it was nice to have them because I adore both of them.
Luckily this week is pretty quiet. Friday is Matt and Candace's wedding and I'm so excited for it. I'm sure it's going to be beautiful. Her dad died about 6 weeks ago from a heart attack so it's definitely going to be an emotional day.
So hopefully I will be going back to my house soon and I think i'm going to make a little breakfast for dinner and that'll be about it.
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