wigging out

I was completely wigging out today. I went to bed last night visualizing my tumbling and it was great until I started panicking and thinking outcome instead of process. Instead of concentrating on what I'm doing tonight I thought about 3 weeks from now. THREE WEEKS!!! How insane is that? I was so afraid I wouldn't have my tumbling by tryouts and that I wouldn't have enough time to do "everything" and I was oging to go to Daytona for a mere five days and lose any tumbling I have by then. Realistic? I think not but I battled it for a big chunk of my day. However, I did e-mail Dr. Kays who thankfully got me calmed down. I realized that if I go to tumbling tonight and give it everything I have, I could do my handspring. If I let go of my fear to succeed and just do it, I couldn't be afraid of what if I DO get it? anymore. So tonight I am going to do my backhandspring. I don't care if it is the last thing I do before I leave. I don't care if I only do it once. If I can do it once tonight I can do it fifty times 3 weeks from now and there will be absolutely nothing to worry about.