I DID IT!!!

I am A MARSHALL UNIVERSITY CHEERLEADER!!!! On April 19 2009 I went to the Cam Henderson Center at 8:15 in the morning and the number 12 was posted on the list!!!! I cried!!! Our first practice was pretty quiet and easy and we had our spring game the following weekend. I know you're probably thinking "How could you not have this up already?"
It's funny. After try outs I basically went in to shock. The scariest part was realizing that I had this huge goal and I reached it!!! And for the last 2 or 3 weeks I've really just been struggling to get back to a normal routine. I was mentally emotionally and physically exhausted and every part of my being finally just said "Ok now I'm just going to be exhausted" and that's how it's been. Dr. Kays has had me set some new goals and that is really helping. I'm realizing that just because I have met this goal that doesn't mean my drive is gone. I can set new ones and be just as driven.
I met with a nutritionist. Her name is Barb and she's awesome. She's trying to get my calories and carbohydrates up which is a difficult task for me. I'm struggling with it a little on some days but for the most part I'm doing well. I've lost 6 lbs in the last couple months and I seriously think my boobs are getting bigger. I have no idea how but I just bought new sports bras because the other ones were too small. It's stressing me out a little because I don't want anything to get bigger but I'm trying to remind myself that even at my lowest weight I was in a medium sports bra (what I just bought after wearing smalls last summer when I weighed more). I think it's my medicine that's doing it but I just don't want them to continue to get bigger lol. They're ok where they are right now but much more and I really will get frustrated.
I'm stressing out a little the more i think about how much my life is changing. I'm leaving behind a whole life to start a new one and it's a little overwhelming. There's so much to do for cheerleading and I'm trying to fit in family vacation and a trip to visit my cousin Scott in Georgia and a couple side things with Kels. Plus getting ready to move to campus. I'm trying to spend some time with jess and Josh knowing I won't be here that long. I guess it's just change and as you can see I'm not very good at it. But I'm trying =]