a titties and beer-tiful day :)

It's been a string of crazy days! And they're going to stay that way for the next couple of weeks! The good news is that they're going to fly by! The bad news is I have to practice slowing myself down to enjoy them! I woke up to Nancy, cleaning the house getting ready for the party. So my usual routine was shaken a little but it was okay. I'm getting ready to go to tumbling this morning and then meeting mom at Costco for some final party stuff. Tumbling last night went really well. I ran my own warm up. I went from trampoline, to trampoline with the floor on it, to pit and then down the cheese wedge. Mike said I did a bunch by myself down the wedge and 3 or 4 were good. So I was really excited about that. I'm hoping to have it back for practice in a couple weeks! Speaking of which. I keep stressing myself out about what if i don't have it back for this practice? Or What if I sike myself out again? I am getting better at quickly shutting those thoughts out and moving on to more positive ones! I know practice will go well and I am going to do great at tumbling today. On Mike's grading scale which is
1. ok
2. good
3. titties
4. beer
5. titties and beer
6. all out party
I was "titties" last night and I told him I would be "titties and beer" today. I know it sounds goofy and slightly inappropriate but it keeps things a little more humorous and less scale of 1-10. So I'm off to be titties and beer and then meeting mom to buy beer for the party. It's going to be a titties and beer-tiful day :)

One of those crazy days!

There are days that start out harmless enough. A couple of things to do here and there but lowkey for the most part, but they sneak up on you and all of a sudden you have planned out every section of your day that was once "Yeah I'm busy from noon to 3" to "well i have graduation practice at noon then I'll eat something for lunch quickly, get in the best 35 minute work out of my life before I run to the bank in just enough time to be at the farmer's market 10 minutes early to ensure a prime pick of strawberries, followed by a hair appointment after I drop my goodies in my car and scarf down a couple strawberries. After my hair has been restored to it's original beauty, Jessand sarah need picked up, fed and then I'll make a smoothie and update my blog before I take Josh to his lacrosse game, come home, finish updating my blog that I got interrupted in the middle of doing to take Josh to the game, then comb the dog, make dinner, and then pick upone of the girls that cheers with jess from clinics and take her home. WHEW!" Do you get what I'm saying? It's been an awesome day though! I'm feeling great and right now the house is quiet, I'm the only one here and I LOVE IT! So I'm going to enjoy it :)

a summer of great expectations :)

I finally have time to give you an update! Ok so since try outs I've still been stunting with Gordon and tumbling with Mike. Everything feels sooo surreal. I was in shock for a good 2 week period and really a little bit for a month until I went back for practice. That helped put in perspective the work that still needs to be done. I'm seeing a nutritionist who is helping me eat more to boost my metabolism. It's all a little challenging because with eating more I feel bloated and gross sometimes but most of the time I have more energy. And with marshall it's soooo intimidating! I totally threw myself off last practice! I let all the older girls intimidate me and I really should have been concentrating on myself. I've really been struggling with feeling like I don't deserve it when I look around and see all these incredibly talented girls! But luckily Dr. Kays is helping me rebuild my confidence and Mike is KICKING MY ASS in the gym! Speaking of which, Saturday was a handspring fest in a sauna! The gym felt absolutely disgusting! But it was great because I had to push myself hard and since I was the only one there I had a lot of one on one attention and accomplished a lot! I did handsprings beautifully on a floor on the tramp and then a coupe good ones on a really thick mat on the tramp. At that point I thought I was going to DIE! But it felt great to push myself like that!
In other news, graduation is this week. I took my last 2 finals today and I am SOOO excited! It is absolute craziness around here getting ready for my party on sunday! Parties have already started and the sad part is I'm already over it! lol there are so many people I'm ready to notsee again. I met a boy! In huntington! I was shoe shopping after the last practice on that Sunday (because shoe shopping is a more figure friendly solution for a bad practice than ingesting large amounts of chocolate ice cream. Thank God I learned this a while ago). His name is Corey and he was talking to me while I bought shoes and I ended up going back 3 times and he finally asked me for my number. We've been talking ever since and he'splanning on taking me out when I'm down there in a week :). I'm really excited! Ughh and I have no idea what's going on between me and Gordon but it's something and I don't really know how I feel about it yet lol.
For now I'm trying to enjoy being done with high school and working my ASS off for the summer while enjoying some quality time with friends and family before school starts. For now I am off to tumbling and after my hour long nap I should be ready to rock! It's going to be a goood night! I think we're working running tumbling tonight so I don't really know what to expect but I expect good things :)

Getting back in the habit

Ok so I've really gotten out of the habit of doing this so I'm going to jump back in head first! I'm getting ready to go over to integrity to tumble with mike for a little bit and just have fun and get some work done. It's gorgeous out side, perfect for memorial day weekend and I'm looking forward to getting out and enjoying it. I really hope to make big prgoress today. maybe get to handsprings down the wedge by myself again? That would be nice. I think that's today goal =]!
The beautiful weather is making me soooo HAPPY!! I'm so glad winter is over and spring is here...Almost summer really! It's really helping my tumbling I think! Well time to go get some work done =]

who complains about bigger boobs?

You would think bigger boobs would be a GOOD tihng but I cannot seem to be ok with it! I swear I'm getting more and more self conscious about it every day! But it's also that time of the month and I'm conscious of everything right now lol. I stunted with Gordon today and did pretty well. We worked on our routine for the talent show. It's been a really quiet week with Mike gone. I've been working out on my own everyday trying to do the best I can but it's hard not to take a break while I can knowing how crazy things are and they're only going to get crazier!!! I'm getting myself nervous for nest weekends practices. I think it's jsut because I'm the under dog, the freshman. I don't know what to expect or what I'm in for and it's scary. It's like, ok I made it but can I really hang with the big dogs? I have to keep talking myself up!!! I think I've gotten out of that habit since tryouts are over. My inner self defeatist has secretly taken over and I have to take it back!!! URGGGGH!!!! I have some conditioning to do and then get ready for school tomorrow. I'm so ready to be done!!!

I DID IT!!!

I am A MARSHALL UNIVERSITY CHEERLEADER!!!! On April 19 2009 I went to the Cam Henderson Center at 8:15 in the morning and the number 12 was posted on the list!!!! I cried!!! Our first practice was pretty quiet and easy and we had our spring game the following weekend. I know you're probably thinking "How could you not have this up already?"
It's funny. After try outs I basically went in to shock. The scariest part was realizing that I had this huge goal and I reached it!!! And for the last 2 or 3 weeks I've really just been struggling to get back to a normal routine. I was mentally emotionally and physically exhausted and every part of my being finally just said "Ok now I'm just going to be exhausted" and that's how it's been. Dr. Kays has had me set some new goals and that is really helping. I'm realizing that just because I have met this goal that doesn't mean my drive is gone. I can set new ones and be just as driven.
I met with a nutritionist. Her name is Barb and she's awesome. She's trying to get my calories and carbohydrates up which is a difficult task for me. I'm struggling with it a little on some days but for the most part I'm doing well. I've lost 6 lbs in the last couple months and I seriously think my boobs are getting bigger. I have no idea how but I just bought new sports bras because the other ones were too small. It's stressing me out a little because I don't want anything to get bigger but I'm trying to remind myself that even at my lowest weight I was in a medium sports bra (what I just bought after wearing smalls last summer when I weighed more). I think it's my medicine that's doing it but I just don't want them to continue to get bigger lol. They're ok where they are right now but much more and I really will get frustrated.
I'm stressing out a little the more i think about how much my life is changing. I'm leaving behind a whole life to start a new one and it's a little overwhelming. There's so much to do for cheerleading and I'm trying to fit in family vacation and a trip to visit my cousin Scott in Georgia and a couple side things with Kels. Plus getting ready to move to campus. I'm trying to spend some time with jess and Josh knowing I won't be here that long. I guess it's just change and as you can see I'm not very good at it. But I'm trying =]