Hello Again. It's been awhile since I posted. I guess in all of the stress of chasing this dream of cheering at Marshall and trying to enjoy my senior year and finally getting over my first love, I got caught up and stopped concentrating on what really matters. I realized if I can't be happy with myself now, I won't be happy with myself a year from now. So a lot has happened since we lost touch but first I want to make a public apology. I want to apologize to Joe. I thought that hurting him like I was hurting would make me feel better but it didn't. So although I can't take it back and probably will not have a chance to make up for it, I want to apologize. I am happy to know he is happy. So if you read this, know that there are no hard feelings and I hope you are doing well. I've come a long way since October. I'm stunting ans tumbling better than ever although I still have a lot of work to do on tumbling. I've battled a lot of inner demons that were bringing me down in my performance with the help of a sprosts psychologist. And no more crazy dieting! No more no carbs no fat no this no that. It's all about balance. I started a medication called metformin because we think I have PCOS. I cut my hair super short up to above my shoulders. So much is changing and although that would normally scare the hell out of me, I'm loving it. I'm getting used to not being in control of everything and learning that I can't control what happens the weekend of May 1st (try-outs). All I can do is live in today and that is what I intend to do. So here's to a new start in the home stretch of this year long race.
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