I am writing today's entry from Huntington West Virginia. The home of Marshall University's Thundering Herd. We're staying at my grandparents house. Just me and my mom and it's really been like a mini vacation. This weekend was try outs for cheerleading and guess who got to take it all in? Me =]. It was amazing to see and I am soooo excited to try out next year. It all made sense. I could see it right in front of me. I could see myself practicing on that mat, in that gym. I COULD SEE IT! I have never wanted anything more in my life. Ask my mother and she'll tell you. I can see myself in that uniform, stunting on the sidelines, rockin the fight song, taking pictures with little kids, going to events. I can see myself practicing my hardest and conditioning and everything. It may sound stupid but I have dreamed of this for a long time.
Things are definitely turning around. I'm getting my confidence back. Going to the doctor tomorrow to see what he says about my thyroid. I'm hoping he'll just put me on soemthing to regulate it. I think I've actually lost a couple pounds. I noticed I've been eating less and my clothes are fitting better already. Now I've never been a big eater to speak of but I've definitely noticed a change for the better.
Kelsie got to go to New York this weekend to see the pope. I still haven't heard anything about it but I'm sure it was amazing. The closest I've gotten to the pope was being in the Vatican. That was an amazing experience. Apparently she got to see the pope mobile and she's bringing me back a magnet. =]
I know you're probably really tired of hearing about J but things have gotten ugly. They say all is fair in love and war and I can't tell if it's love or war. But it's been nasty. Messages, stares, just plain being mean to eachother and it makes me sick. It truly makes me sick. I was laying on the couch last night flipping between the Wedding Date and Remember The Titans and it was so weird. I just kept thinking about him. You see, he came down with us for a football game last year and we stayed there over night. The night we stayed there everyone forgot we were in there and we just layed there until almost dawn, talking and kissing and whispering and sharing and dozing off and waking up content knowing we were together. It was one of the most amazing nights of my life and one of the highlights of our relationship. I remembered it so vividly and I just began to cry. How did we go from that to this? It breaks my heart and makes me sick.
But I won't dwell on it because it is a beautiful day and I am off to go shopping before dinner with the cheerleaders tonight. I only brought sweats and stuff so I get to go shopping for a cute outfit =]
1. beautiful weather
2. tryouts
3. steff =]
4. peanut butter
5. my mom
GO HERD!
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