A good but frustrating night

URGGGHH!!!! Mike looked at me tonight after I did my handspring ont 2 floors on top of the pit and pointed to the floor and said handspring and I totally let the opportunity pass me by. I didn't do it. He had to stand there. I played to many games with myself. It's ok though. Mike knows it's right there and I know it too. It's just soooo frustrating cutting it so close and not knowing what's going to happen. Tonight isn't as important as tomorrow. I have to concentrate on pushing forward! It doesn't matter that I didn't throw it tonight. What matters is that Mike's goal was for me to do pretty handsprings on the 1 floor on the soft mat and not only did I do that but I did it on 2 floors and then he told me to do it on the regular floor. I wayyy surpassed my goal even if I didn't do it on the floor without him having to stand there. I want to do it tomorrow night and I want to do it consistently by friday. What matters is that I do it 11 days from now. Tonight is done and now I just move forward